*Hopefully* (you guys know me)
Today was probably the greatest day of my life. And you all know why. And if you don’t, where have you been the last six months???
It was my last chemotherapy. Six rounds, twelve treatments. One hospital stay. Three scans. Forty-eight eggs. However many doctors appointments. Too many shots to count. No hot dogs. And endless amounts of love and support from my family and friends.
Today was smooth. So smooth it’s almost a dream? Am I really already home? Was there really no traffic? Did I really get yelled at to be quiet by the old man in the room over from mine?
There was only one problem this time around and it was unrelated to the whole cancer thing. I got a weird tooth that’s been a pain in my behind for awhile. It started out with a cavity that turned into a root canal and then the tortilla chip incident of 2017 happened this weekend and the filling has now fallen out. It hurts like a bitch and I’m not suppose to get dental work done until my ports out. Which may be a couple weeks. DUN dun dun. More on this next week.
So yea, today was fricken great. My counts were good so I’m sailing out of this week without any shots. Judy was my nurse, and pretty much the second we got there I was already getting my blood drawn for labs. And then saw the PA and doctor, who I’m actually really gonna miss. And then I got my chemo.
Two of my galpals came and we had a partay. Judy said “who brought the tequila?” And I was like honestly I wish, could you put that in an IV for me? Soon enough though, Katie, soon enough.
My older brother was there. My mom. And that guy who kept telling us to be quiet even though he was screaming about Donal Trump and what not? Whatever. Excuse me sir, it’s my day.
It wasn’t just about who was with me physically, but who was with me in spirit. The outpouring of messages I received today have put the biggest smile on my face. You are all truly amazing people and I am so lucky (not a word I use a lot to describe myself) to have people like you in my life. And then: the video.
Another two galpals put together an amazing video for me. It included little clips of my friends from home, my friends from school, my family, a couple of dogs, some cameos from past bachelor and bachelorette contestants, a rando from a ratchet dating show me and my friend Meg watch, GirlWithNoJob and BoyWithNoJob, and Allison Williams aka Marnie on Girls aka Brian Williams’ daughter (JAW DROP). The video was incredible. If you don’t get how much I was star struck when I saw the faces of the bachelor contestants like I LOVE REALITY TV JUNK. On a more ~sentimental~ note, it showed me how much support I have and how many insanely good hearted people I have in my life. I truly feel *blessed*. There are no words to say how grateful I am for everyone who has texted, called, sent me something, or even just gave me a good thought throughout this. I wouldn’t be here, and I wouldn’t have had the mindset I did going through this, without you all.
People ask me how do I feel and I really just can’t describe it. Part of it is because I just had an Ativan so I’m honestly a little loopy right now. But the other part is that I have so many feelings right now that not one word could do it justice. So maybe a picture will help. Because they say pictures say a thousand words or something.
I feel lighter. Like a weight has been lifted off my chest. And even though I won’t have a scan until April that will *hopefully* say I’m cancer-free, it is a huge relief knowing I don’t have to go back to the hospital in two weeks for a field trip to chemo land.
Chemo Land: get all of the feelings of being on a rollercoaster, without having to actually go on one!
But seriously. I feel happy and excited and jittery and amazing and a little tired and kinda nausea but also really excited. Really really excited. Did I say I’m excited?
I’ll take the time I need to recuperate from this last treatment. But I’m in good spirits, and I hope that I won’t feel as bad physically because I don’t feel so bad mentally. And then: it’s party time.
It is the perfect day to start the rest of my life. If I was in Miss Congeniality and was asked to”describe your idea of a perfect date?” I would definitely say February 28. It’s the last day of the month. I get to start fresh in march. Spring is just around the corner, just in time for massive amounts of celebration. I am closing a couple of chapters of my life today. I hope that the next couple are filled good times and being able to take care of others, instead of the other way around. Plus, the weather is pretty great today.
Here’s the Miss Congeniality scene if you didn’t get the reference
It’ll be a few more weeks until I can chow down on some sushi and gross but delicious Chinese food and salad and hot dogs unfortunately. So If you need me, I’ll be eating Judicke donuts and watching the live feed of April the Giraffe in labor for the rest of the week. I hope that in the future I have more hobbies. Or maybe I don’t.
Thank you for everything. Thank you to everyone out there that has just listened to me write about nonsense and ramble. I hesitated with this blog at first because I’m not one to put it all out there. But I am so glad I did because not only did you guys find it entertaining, it helped me compose my thoughts and really think about things. I got to connect with people in similar situations, and people not in similar situations. They say love is universal, but what they should really say is “Tuesday’s with Katie is universal.” I’m totally kidding but not really. So I hope you were able to learn, to laugh, and to appreciate life. I’ll keep on writing if you guys keep reading.
I didn’t get carried out of the hospital by shirtless men, but we did sing “We Are the Champions” and I struck a killer pose.